So many things we never got to do
So many conversations we never got through
I feel lost and empty now
Every day I ask, how?
I could feel nothing when you died
I felt I wanted to run and hide
Run and hide cause I felt blind
Peace and and clarity I couldn't find
They say when you die your soul just flies away
I wanted to chase your soul, so for another day you could just come and stay
You were my Grams, you taught me how to stand on my own
Now that you’re gone, I feel as though I can’t do it alone
I've tried so hard to see things through and become the person you wanted me to be
Sometimes it’s just so hard being me
I'd give anything if I could just talk to you once more
To see you walk through the door
and tell me that everything was going to be alright for sure
When I look into the sky I picture you staring down
Which is why I have no reason to frown
All the things you taught me, all the songs we use to sing
Now you’re gliding under God’s precious wings
I hope He’s taking good care of you because now you’re in His place
I hope all your worries and all your fears have left your face
I never got so say goodbye that was the worst part
But I know that when you left secretly you said goodbye to my heart
So when I lay myself into bed tonight
I know you'll always be there to hold me tight
miss you badly
gone back to school and it seems more interesting than i expected.sat next to mich at first but ms wendy changed our seating arrangement today.guess wad?my darling natty wifey is sitting with me now..haha..how happy!everyday can gossip and laugh.mich is now sitting with jaslin.
haizz..gotta do quite a lot of caj for geog.luckily i have done some of them before hols.so kind of less stress now.this semester is like filles with tests,assignments and exams.everythin will just cramp in 10 weeks or so.and END OF YEAR EXAMS will come!my god...
had a good time laughing till my tears dropped yesterday during cca.sarah anne,olivia and sindy told us jokes.and petrina's laughter can't resist me from bursting out laughing again.what a fun time that we had=))
today also having a good time laughing with mich in the morning.forgot about what happen.everyday we will have new things to talk and laugh about.school days are actually not that boring as i thought.haha.and ms wendy and ms yeo owe me chocolates.hopefully they won't forget about it! had lunch with natassia after school and told her about obs.yeah we ate roti prata outside school and saw a familiar ppl.well, we talked a lot of things too.of course we have to catch up with each other after one month of holidays!
new semester,new faces of teachers.have new teachers for chinese,maths and social studies.they seem to be better than last ones.maybe...i hope they are.
overall,i enjoy going to school now except for the days when i have cca.super tiring...my new duty for this sem is overall in charge of sec 4.it's gonna to be a tough job...but jia you.i can do it.it's just the beginning=)hopefully everything will go smoothly.the best thing is that..NO MORE CANTEEN DUTY!!!how great!can have more time to spend with my clique and eat more for recess!!HOORAY!!=))
gotta stop here now.i just wanna say my last few words for today...GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR NATIONALS!!! JIA YOU! EVERYONE IS SUPPORTING YOU!=)
-lovely day-
miss you badly
it has been long since i blog again.yeah im back in s'pore since last sun and i was away for obs.back on fri and was completely exhausted.obs was fun but tiring.and i've made new friends of course.not from other schools but from sac.i think our school was the only school that was put in the same group.we were separated into two groups.but we never mix up with other schools like other groups.there were many ppl there for obs.17 groups and each group has a maximum of 16 ppl.well you can now guess how many ppl there are.
yeah...it was tiring cos we had a lot of physical training and every night we slept in tent.it was freezingly cold in the morning.anyway,obs was fun overall and i didn't actually want to leave the place on fri.there were many lessons learnt then.i dont regret coming for obs at all though it seemed to be tough and meaningless at first=)
managed to complete most of my hols homework when i came back on fri.still have to do my eng review and maths project.yeah.my hols were great.and i enjoyed myself a lot and it's time to come back and start working now.i want to start a new semester afresh.
saw my friend in church yesterday and kind of happy la..haha..long time no see mah.im looking forward to the service attachment in july.hopefully it's going to be fun.
i gotta go now and hope to be able to post again.
cheers!
-good day,great mood-
miss you badly
i'm feeling totally exhausted today.well...maybe i'm trying too hard again.those time and those memories will always be in my head.no matter wad.two more days and i will have to leave this place and be back to my normal life in another place.yeah...
thanks for those who have given these memories and sweet times.yeah...all the things only you all who can give me.yeah..true friends are always the best.though i havent known you all for long but you all are my very best friends and won't be forgotten.how i wish i could turn back the time so that i could do more precious things.it's true when saying-you'll never know what you have and treasure it till you've lost it...
having lost of sleep recently and this made me really frustrated and tired.yeah...but i don't mind cos i want to enjoy to the very last second for last few days on this land.yeah...gonna miss it man...
anyway.i also hope to return back soon so that i can have you back to me and i will be able to complete things that are needed to be done.
miss you badly
-trying to put on the sunglasses and see how i look-
-another sunglasses-
pei yi,me,oli
the threesome
with oli and me-the spiderman sunglasses=)
-gone wild at vivo- 
yeah with oli...err trying to play hide & seek??
These are the pictures were taken after exams.yeah..kind of long time ago.i went to vivo with my council for fun after all the stress and wadever during exams period.we had lots of fun!!hopefully we will have another chance to go out together with everyone's presence!=))few more days i will be back in s'pore...kind of mixed feelings of sad and happy..but...
i gotta go soon today.cant write much today...
another time babe!
=))
miss those times...
miss you badly
again in front of the comp right now..yeah past few days i was kind of busy and lazy to post.this sunday i will be back in singapore.time flies.and all my homework not done yet!...one week passed and i found myself happy enjoying here=))
and i wanna say a very big HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JACLYN AND TIFFANY=))YOU BOTH ARE THE BIRTHDAY GIRLS TODAY!ALWAYS STAY HAPPY AND GOD BLESS ALWAYS=))
heard that many things happened in s'pore.yeah my little wife is sick.and my best friend is kind of troubled now...well..i feel hopeless as well.to best friend(a.sia):"Cheer up ok,everything has its solution.dont run away from problems.just face it strongly and then you will grow from it.anything just email me.i will give my best to help la." to my little wife:"hey darling, take care of yourself okie.dont strain yourself too much=)).get well soon!"
i hope time will stop for a while so that i can have more time here.i'd like to be back in s'pore as well but somehow this place has left me many memories that i can't forget.sometimes i wonder why do i act strong and firm when actually i dont feel the same inside.that's so confusing.sometimes i dont even understand myself either.i feel indecisive when my heart has to make its decisions but...
anyway,hope that everything will just get back to normal and i will have to let nature takes its course.won't fret over it too much.yeah...
to me friendship is like more precious than **** relationship.tt's why i dont want to ruin it cos of my feelings...argh...realised that sometimes im just making the situation to be more difficult than the way it should be.i just complicate it.for no reasons...and sometimes i dont want it to be this way either.anyway...many ppl are leaving this period and im just feeling uneasy.
speechless now...
miss you badly
woke up late today cos i slept at about 12 last night.the latest time i ever stayed up before.no reason for it..but i don't feel good today.well,my mood is totally spoiled because of some matters again.and this question just cant stop go round my mind...why do adults think that they're always right??
it's so unreasonable.the adults just want things to be done in their own ways.they just don't care how i feel and what i'm thinking.what do they actually think about me?i'm also human being you know.i do have my own view and my own right to speak up.but why do they always not give me the chance to talk?
it's just too complicated in the adults' life.and they're just too little too selfish.they want everything to be the way they plan and so on.what do you think i am?a puppet?
sometimes i just feel it's like no future and no peace to be controlled by adults.argh!!!no freedom at all.it's like they're just using me to please themselves and other ppl.they're just giving me a headache.seriously.heck!
and one more thing..well i really dislike ppl who smoke.yeah..but i have no choice cos my dad smokes.tt's one thing i don't like about him.cos he never keeps his promise to me.he said he will quit smoking but then.he seems unable to kick the bad habit.useless...i just can't stand their smell and the smoke.it's too far too unbearable.hopefully my boyfriend in the future does not have the habit of smoking for goodness sake.
anyway,my mood is simply destroyed by some ppl and i hope that i can forget it soon and bring back my normal mood for the rest of the day.
-complicated-
miss you badly
-with my aunt's niece-
-these are real photos taken of a waterfall-
-these were taken from a top of a mountain-
hey!yeah i'm back from 5-days trip.it was pretty fun though tiring.we went to many places and bought many things on the way.and we took many pics there.but i just uploaded some only...the nicest places i think..and it's really a good place for geog lessons.yeah=)the place that we went to is quite cold.what am i talking about?it's obviously in the upper land.tt's why you can see waterfall and so on..the scenery is really great!don't you think so?!
i've been thinking much during this trip about this particular thing(can't be mentioned here) and now i realised that sometimes i must take things easy as they come and learn how to let go some certain things that are beyond my control.and it was kind of help..i'm feeling much better when let it go. i dont wanna drag the past back.it's not going to be in my memory anymore.everything will be forgotten soon...
anyway,i'm feeling damn pissed now.just because of one person, everything is destroyed.even the happiest moment of the day also vanished.no brains!..maybe this is just the best way for me to vein my anger.i tried my best to bring this back and now it's destroyed!what a destroyer!
i miss s'pore and everyone there.yeah..jac,natassia,nattywifey..and some more ppl*..haha..hinting=)yeah...i hope to be back soon too.it's so peaceful overthere.and i have to start on my hw pretty soon too..stressed!
"just call out my name and i'll be there just to show how much i care"
-quoted from born to make you happy by britney spears.-
miss you badly
but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing
that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure...
There's gotta be more
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
I'm wanting more
I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed....Always... Always...
-by Stacie Orrico-
miss you badly
HEY!i'm feeling super GOOD and HAPPY now..yeah!guess why?it was a relief to me when you took the initiative to start the conversation!wah...feel like just getting rid of a heavy burden in the heart now lol.so now i know that my msg didn't go astray or sth.thanks a lot!=))
it was an interesting morning.saw someone in church.it won't be a matter if the person's name is not mentioned here.but yah..we're now more like strangers to each other.i've already let everything out in my mind the other time and all i want now is that we can still be friends.but it somehow doesn't turn out the way i wanted it to be...well...speechless
after mass i went for breakfast!guess what..the food was really wonderful!feel like eating again when talking about it..YUMMY!!!
then i went to this place to check my eye sight and to make new specs with my dad.after getting confused over some of them(yeah..cos everything seems nice there),i've finally chosen sth i like!my degree didn't not increase but found out another problem about my eyes.anyway...it's just minor so nothing to be worried about.
later on i will go there and collect my new specs and hopefully i can go shopping for a while.desperate for it now!!
today is pleasantly GOOD!
p.s: to *someone*:"I'm really sorry for having said all those ignorant words...i was feeling bad that time so i just let everything out.i hope you don't take it to heart all right?"
miss you badly
im now not in Singapore anymore.haha...kind of missing it now.slept at about 11+ last night cos have to make sure that everything is so-called fully packed and yah.so i had like 4 hours or so to sleep.but i did sleep in the plane though.it was damn uncomfortable at the back.argh...cos of some ppl that's why we came late and had to sit at the back!
anyway...i will definitely enjoy myself here and make sure that i get everything i want since it's much cheaper here than in s'pore.haha...going to get eveything ready for obs as well.cos i will only be back on the 17th and obs is like on the 18th.this kind of thing can help to train me to be quick like wad??emergencies?...
big hug and thanks to natassia!haha...you make me feel so loved.i will surely miss you too.dont worry i will get you sth special from here=)forget about that person la.no big deal.i will just enjoy myself without having to worry about ***...yah...you understand right a.sia??
haha...good day.good weather and good mood=))
miss you badly
yeah.hi again..i'll be flying off in 10 hours later.man..2 weeks now seems to be like 2 monthgs for me now and i still have tonnes of things need to be completed.like??homeworks??argh!!!I NEED A BREAK!!!
went to help my godma at the canteen today and somehow enjoyed myself lol..yeah it's fun counting money and giving change to people.haha...anyway,it was raining quite heavily this afternoon.resulted in postponing my trip to tampines mall.and guess what?saw natassia and her junior there at popular.to natassia: "hey!why are you like so shocked when seeing me?haha..like never see me in skirt before like that LOL!"...anyway...
one more thing that shocked my life today was about cass.haha...to cass: "didnt expect you to really go and call the publisher up!well..thanks for your concerning about the class.but i dont think anyone will really go and do the maths homework in tys.it's the teacher's fault partly too.they last minute that time then come and tell us.dont worry so much la.first week of school they won't mind much."
last night msg that person cos i couldn't sleep.yeah telling you that i'm leaving soon but i dont think you catch my hints.so just forget it.we're not like yah...so i just regard you as a close friend and inform you that i might not be able to contact you for a period of time.but you don't seem to care so just let it be...
last few words to say...wishing everyone HAPPY HOLIDAYS and see you all when school reopens=)to danielle and rachel tan: "you all can email me if you all need help la.then send to me your works when you're done so that i can print them all out.thanks=)enjoy your holidays!"
smiles=)
miss you badly
