Today is such a bad,DAMN bad day!
firstly i had to stand outside the class during bio.the very first time in my past 2 years in sac.the reason was that i accidentally took out the freaking notebook yesterday while packing my bag without knowing its absence.did explain to mr hamzah but still had to stand outside.well,his bad day as well i guess.everyone is moody today.luckily bio last for half an hour only.but it was embarrassed enough though.
secondly,honestly speaking,i feel like building a wall to separate me from the person who sat next to me on my right.it's getting on my nerves soon.and i wonder since when i have a parrot,more accurate-a copycat!wadever i do,even taking out the foolscap to write down my notes,she will also do the same.and one more thing that irritates me the most-borrowed my notes to copy because she didn't pay attention to wadever was in the bloody screen,that's why she did not know that there was thing to copy into the notes.so she missed it and i had to lend her my notes.and so what?it doesn't mean i allow her to copy my OWN notes that i have written there?and why must she highlights all those i highlighted too?what is she trying to DO?piss me off can?there WON'T be the next time i'm going to lend her my notes for goodness sake!and every 5 mins must she turn around just to eye on what i'm doing??CAN I HAVE MY OWN PRIVACY PLEASE?! wth!and actually we're not close friends as she thinks or others might think we're!i don't have a friend who's a COPYCAT!
i've been controlling my anger and temper really that much this afternoon.and another stupid thing happened again in the evening.2 BAD things happened in sch not enough,another WORSE thing comes at home!..where's the peace?the briefing that i was supposed to go tonight in church,well and i have been looking forward to it since sunday.and now..."you don't need to go already".what's this?!what has the world become to?and i can't even ask for the reason behind it.why is it that i'm always at the disadvantage?why everything i do i must give a reason but when it's you who give the order,why don't you have to give the reasons for wadever you do too?isn't it unfair?firstly i had to stand outside the class during bio.the very first time in my past 2 years in sac.the reason was that i accidentally took out the freaking notebook yesterday while packing my bag without knowing its absence.did explain to mr hamzah but still had to stand outside.well,his bad day as well i guess.everyone is moody today.luckily bio last for half an hour only.but it was embarrassed enough though.
secondly,honestly speaking,i feel like building a wall to separate me from the person who sat next to me on my right.it's getting on my nerves soon.and i wonder since when i have a parrot,more accurate-a copycat!wadever i do,even taking out the foolscap to write down my notes,she will also do the same.and one more thing that irritates me the most-borrowed my notes to copy because she didn't pay attention to wadever was in the bloody screen,that's why she did not know that there was thing to copy into the notes.so she missed it and i had to lend her my notes.and so what?it doesn't mean i allow her to copy my OWN notes that i have written there?and why must she highlights all those i highlighted too?what is she trying to DO?piss me off can?there WON'T be the next time i'm going to lend her my notes for goodness sake!and every 5 mins must she turn around just to eye on what i'm doing??CAN I HAVE MY OWN PRIVACY PLEASE?! wth!and actually we're not close friends as she thinks or others might think we're!i don't have a friend who's a COPYCAT!
i could feel the flame burning inside me throughout the whole dinner.tried to cool myself down by drinking the iced juice but it didn't help till i got on the comp and vent all my frustration here.it's just an UNFAIR world!sometimes i wonder why can't i have my own space?why must they always put us together even in our OWN INDIVIDUAL ACTIVITIES?well,sometimes they do but most of the time they DON'T!even in church activities,why can't i be on my own self?not say we're like sister and can't be separated?PLEASE!!!FANG KAI WO!!!such a...!
i really feel so tight,so tight to be in this environment.no air,no space.i don't feel belonged to this kind of atmosphere and environment right now.sometimes i really tried my best to get myself adapted to this kind of situation but then..i feel really tired..i can't help myself anymore.already tried my best to control the emotions that i don't want to let them flow out.don't wanna lose my temper before i regret it one day.am i dong the right thing?sometimes i think i'm just like a nutcase.listen to others but not my heart...
miss you badly